- July 20, 2010
- 11 Comments
- Parenting/Family
The Stuff of Life
When I think back to what I dreamed of as a little girl… I wasn’t terribly creative.
College, marriage, children… dreams for a good, but “regular” life. OK, I also dreamed of being on Fame or Kids Incorporated, but…
With the exception of Fame and Kids Incorporated, my dreams really have come true — college, marriage, children…
But when I see a dead fly sprawled out on my dusty, dirty-sink-water-splattered window sill I think, “Dreams? Dead flies?… College, marriage, children. THIS is the dream?”
When I put on socks so I don’t have to feel the not clean-ness of my floor… when I find a Frito, a small marshmallow, and dried up piece of grated cheese in my coffee basket… I *blink*.
I cock my lead to the left. Then to the right… because it hurts to cock my head to the left.
Don’t even start me on aging issues.
Towels on the floor. Lost shoes and toothbrushes. A budget that suffocates at the right (or wrong) time of the month. A sprained ankle. Late nights and early mornings… Packaged food over fruits and veggies simply because it takes less time to open up a wrapper than to chop.
Processed foods were not in my dream. Bald tires. Dog hair on my couch — Not. Dream.
But… dare I say… I love this dream.
I don’t love the stress or the mess… but I really question whether this dream would be right, DREAMY, even.. without all the crap.
Yes, I wrote crap.
Every-so-often a person will tell me, “You live such an exciting life!” I think living online gives that appearance. And that is another post all in itself (remember those late nights I mentioned?… it’s not because I have newborns anymore…)
But when it all comes down… I really do believe I am living my dream…
Regardless of the dead flies on the sill…
or dirt on my floors…
Airing out my dirty laundry for all the world to see. On second thought, it IS a little exciting…
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Oh thank God, you ARE human!
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i love this. you speak my language, sister friend.
Jenny -
I enjoy reading your blog.
This idea is what turned into a blog for me. I started out writing as a book and then decided – who would ever publish this. So I created a blog.
Thanks for the smiles, Amy
Well said. Amen.
Thanks for the revelation. I said, “oh, staying up all night…that’s how she does it”! All the marathons, the blog, the videos, the volunteering at the kids’ school…it makes one wonder. And as for the dead flies and piles of laundry…join the club…it’s a huge club.
A friend and I were just having a conversation on how we live. You know, the “My house should be cleaner.” “Should be more organized.” “Should…(fill in the blank).” “Should is a crippling word. I love this post about your Dreams Come True. Our dreams did come true however, when we were little we didn’t realize the crumbs, laundry, dust and clutter were part of the package. My dream was to get married, have children and be a princess. I got two out of three. As far as the princess thing…I’m convinced I was switched at birth and someone else is living in my castle.
HAHA! Kids Inc.?! Oh way to bring it back, whoa-man! I watched that show so much…pretty sure it caused my crap vision. And that blonde girl ended up as Fergie from the Black Eyed Peas. Whatever happened to that one guy with the black spiky hair? I had a huuuuge crush on him. He was also in Monster Squad…I still remember the theme song for that show…
Gotta have the crap to get to the good stuff! It’s the rule.
it’s funny how our perspective changes over time. all these things that we thought would be world ending become so worth it. all the ewws and the ouches and the omgs add so much more depth to our lives.
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What a beautiful dream! You ARE living it!
This is a great post, you’re so eloquent. BTW…I was SO sure I was destined for Star Search or Kids Incorporated 
hehe