Daily Archive for September 29th, 2007

Other kids’ mothers

exhaust me.

It’s been a difficult month (see previous post)… but life keeps rolling. Rolling. Rolling.

Swim lessons, for example. The mothers keep taking the kids to swim lessons. I too keep taking Lucy. The kids keep life rolling.

Lucy has a love/hate relationship with water. She has been known to ooze, “I love you Wa Wa” as we drive onto the ferry. Yet she screams like a tortured victim from some “B” horror flick when her face gets wet while bathing. Then there is me, and my bright ideas… knowing our month would be difficult… I still signed her up for lessons. This is one example of how I have turned to “Avoidance Therapy” to wriggle out of dealing with what’s really going on… or I am just “bright idea” impaired?

I digress.

Lucy screamed, “NO! NO! NO!” (in varying decibels and inflections) to her teacher when asked if she was ready to use the kickboard. She hates water unless she is on dry land or on a large floating vessel. I knew her response wasn’t OK, but sometimes you gotta choose yer battles. And I knew this was a battle I was not emotionally able to take on. So not able. So. Not.

A few minutes later, a little boy rejected the teacher too - but he was nice. He softly said, “No… I’m all done.”

I said to myself, “That was nice. I like it when people notice nice things about my kids and tell me, so, Self… tell that mom how nice that was.”

I did. Dummy. *smack*

Here’s what I got back, “Oh, he knows yelling would NEVER fly in OUR house.”

Wow. I can’t beleive how different we are. I think little people need to yell MORE. More power. More money. More influence. More. More. More. They should be given crowns and sceptors and high chairs covered in purple velvet.

I think that whole situation happened to someone else… on TV…

My Father-In-Law

My precious father-in-law passed from this world into the hands of his beloved Heavenly Father on September 15, 2007.

There is sadness and joy - sadness for those of us who want to talk with him more… giggle with him more… But joy in the knowledge his body is free from pain - and that he truly is in a much more wonderful place.

I have lots of things I long to share… but not just yet. Each time I’ve started to write about it all, I get - I don’t know - overwhelmed, maybe… The word I need doesn’t exist. I miss him.

Thank you all for your prayers and thoughts and words of comfort…