Jenny On the Spot

to wear on Sundays at church:

Though I drop off my kids

at Sunday school and at the nursery and rarey work in either

I do, in fact, do something around here

You can’t see it today -

it often happens late at night

after my 3 kids have gone to bed

when I should be in bed too.

It happens during 7-8 meetings a month, none of which are on a Sunday

these meeting times do not include planning time

or phone calls

or trips to make copies

or trips to the grocery store for food for above metioned events

or email replies

or the cooking time

none of this includes my husband’s time either

I feel some may perceive me to be apathetic or lazy or mooch-y. In reality, I am tired and want to throw in the towel. I give up, I give up, I give up! I give in, I give in, I give in! Days like today drive me to make a decision… Walk away and go to church in my jammies OR bore my kids to death by not letting them go into the nursery or Sunday school. If I choose the former, my kids will miss their connections (as will I). If I choose the latter, I run the risk of being asked to leave the service for having kids who are being too loud - an inevitable reality. I’d be fine having my kids with me, but I am not feeling that vibe from the outer world…

While I serve a God of grace, there is very little grace for mothers of young children where humans are concerned. If our kids’ demands and expectations and dissappointments don’t kills us - the expectations and demands and disappointments of “Man/Woman” will.

If it truly is survival of the fittest - I am done for. Blah.