Jenny On the Spot

I stumbled upon The Blue Sloth a few days ago. I enjoy reading clippits of other bloggers… their careers, their season in life… So, when I came across this blog, I read the sections on the right - \”Who\”, \”What\”, and \”Why\”. The quote below is from his \”What\” section\”…

\”I\’m a wildly imaginative, fiercely competitive, compassionate and nurturing father of three quick-witted, rambunctious, sweet and wonderful children. I am not afraid to walk my own path, though I often feel invisible as a result. I yearn for more free time to write and sculpt, but the juice has definately been worth the squeeze. I miss my daughter now that she\’s in kindergarten. I also miss diet coke, but that\’s another story.\”

As a parent, I was touched by his description of parenting. I relate to what he wrote. My favorite excerpt is, \”the juice has definitely been worth the squeeze\”. As much as I have struggled with lack of time to pursue things I love outside of being a mother… the juice has definitely worth the squeeze.

It\’s more than just time and interests that are sacrificed. Mommy Matters wrote,

There is more to me than being a mother. I just don\’t remember any of it.

I thought that was pretty clever and funny and something that really clicked with me. I like her perspective and humor.

I have often felt lost in this role and have had a hard time seeing beyond the title. I\’ve even noticed that this blog has become much more \”mom-ish\” than I originally intended. I am realizing that I have not lost my individual identity. I have interests and joys, and my children are woven throughout. I want that. My life is different and interests have changed as a result. It has taken time to grow and change as a woman, mother, wife… I can guess this is not the end of it either.

This blog will probably continue to be very mom-focused. Heck - it IS the season of my life. Our newest addition will start the cycle over very soon! I may not remember ALL the parts of me that are beyond \”mom\”, but I am a different person because of this \”role\”. I think I am a better person. In this world people are so focused on \”me\” and \”mine\”. It drives me crazy. I question how beneficial that way of thought is. I feel good about letting that focus of self go… and instead, I plan on enjoying \”the juice\”.