Jenny On the Spot

Have you ever been angry? I sure have, and I’m NOT proud of it. I am learning that this is not a struggle limited to me. Gina wrote about Anger too. Her entry caused me to become very emotional because I have so been there. The last few paragraphs are particularly moving…

The said truth is that, well, I HATE being The Angry Woman. The Angry Woman is the pissy bitch on line in front of you, making a big deal about the price of gas. The Angry Woman is in the coffee shop, with her coffee too cold and her doughnut too hard. The Angry Woman is in gym, unable to understand why you can’t get the $!*# out of her way, don’t you understand she’s late for kickboxing? The Angry Woman neatly reminds you that it’s YOUR fault that she hasn’t paid her bills on time, and you have no right to refuse her service.I don’t like that woman, but I can see her in myself. Not at the store or the gym, but in my home. She doesn’t yell at random strangers, she yells at her husband, and oh, yea, she yells at herself. She calls herself stupid, fat, lame, useless, a Moron. Lately, she’s needed to throw things or bang a fist into something.

I hate her, and I damn well don’t want her to live here any more. If only I knew how to get her to move the hell out, I would.

Gina states it perfectly. Thank you for sharing your heart. We are not alone in this struggle — this battle. By the way, I do have a great book to recommend: She’s Gonna Blow!: Real Help for Moms Dealing With Anger by Julie Ann Barnhill… it is a great book. I read it quite sometime ago, and need to read it again….